Am I Tough Enough?

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Recently, as in November, I under went a medical procedure. KT was there with me to comfort me through this delicate ordeal. I really wanted to prove to him that I was tough.  I mean, I was a Marine Wife who was denied an epidural while giving birth to Miguel.  You'd think THAT would prove I was tough.  I'm also admittedly emotionally constipated.  No weepy wife for KT!

Later, after my procedure, I asked him if I took it like a man to which he replied, "No, because a man wouldn't have to go through that."  So, I rephrased the question and asked if I took it like a tough a$$ed biatch.  (yes, I did say that...at times I have a potty mouth).  After laughing at me, this time he replied, "No, even though you didn't make a sound, you made a squishy face."

What do I have to do to prove I am tough, 

hmmm, KT?

 

Marine Wife #3

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KT was one of the first to return home.  When he had reenlisted it was because he opted for a specific training.  It was in the contract....When things were wrapping up quickly over there, the Marine Corps sent him home in March 1991 with some of the first soldiers coming home.  He had a contract...I was allowed to meet him then even though it was again, the middle of the night.  Like 2 am to be exact.  Do you think I slept, nope...I had a friend come with me to take pictures of our reunion.  Guess what...Her camera didn't work and the pictures didn't come out.  I'll have to settle for one like the above.  

Reunion

My heart

a paradox

of emotions:

Fear, excitement.

My mind 

a labyrinth 

of confusion.

Our moment 

is not so far.

Though many months 

our separation,

only moments

to our reunion...

You, there,

all else a blur.

Focused only on you, 

and I am in your arms.

Those encircling, protective arms.

The great chasm 

in my heart

already it has healed.

~Lisa~

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Marine Wife #2

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I wasn't allowed to see KT off...not the Marine Corps' rules, but his.  They were leaving in the middle of the night, and he didn't want me losing it in Honolulu with no one to take me home.  He thought a lot of himself, didn't he?  So he had a friend pick him up, and I was left standing in the kitchen listening to them drive away.

Parting

In the arms of my lover,

I do relish the moment.

Spinning, spinning

around me the room doth spin.

The clock ticks; you must go.

My tortured heart

laments.

I listen

as you drive away...

and the engine moans.

~Lisa~

If you enjoyed this one, you might want to check out the first Marine Wife

Marine Wife #1

KT re-enlisted in the Marine Corps in December of 1990.  It was a really cool experience.  Since we were stationed in Hawaii at the time, he got to reenlist on the Arizona Memorial in Pearl Harbor.  We both got to fly a flag over the memorial and still have it today.  Later that night when he was at work, he called to tell me that he received his orders to go to the Middle East...

Patriotic Duty

As if planted

in a block of ice

dumbfounded, I stood there.

You, whisked away

into a whirlwind of the

past months events.

Your foreboding destination

looms ahead.

A war without end?

Unsure of the future,

incessantly shaking,

I put the phone back

on the hook.

~Lisa~

Persian Gulf

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Twenty years ago, KT was in the first gulf war. Don't let him fool you, though, he was on the island of Bahrain which is considered by the Arabs to be a resort. He might have had to dodge a few scud missiles, but he learned to play snooker... I was left home to work, hold down the apartment and be my friend's designated driver. What is it with military wives? So many just want to play when the hubby is gone. Not me, I was the dd and faithful to the core. I was not without some offers, though, I'm just sayin'...

I used to write poetry. I haven't in a long time, and I wasn't very good. My poetry was tied to emotions and experiences. It's how I used to express myself. Now I just yell...I have several poems that I wrote that seem to characterize what I went through when he was gone. In honor of twenty years ago, I will be sharing them in a three part series called "Marine Wife". Aren't you excited?

For Moi?

I received this lovely little blog award the other day from my friend Stacy over at Stacy's Snippets and Random Thoughts. Thank you!

Apparently I am supposed to share with you seven things that you may have always wanted to know about me.  (big eye roll here).  This was actually a fairly hard task.  I've been blogging now for a couple of years and I couldn't really think of anything I hadn't already shared.  So here goes with a couple...Hopefully, I haven't shared them before.

So without much further ado...

1.  I used to sing in a female singers group.  We "toured" around singing in various church houses and nursing homes.  We really made it big!  I'm not gunna lie...

2.  I'm an Aries.  You can click the link and learn everything you never wanted to know about an Aries.  All the bad stuff...I've got...All the good stuff...is in moderation.

3.  I was a Marine Corps wife and now an Air Force mama.

4.  I performed in a burlesque topless type show once.  Well, really, it was a costume malfunction at a Ballet Recital, but the audience got a good glimpse at my pre pubescent nippies.

5.  I LOVE watching the Biggest Loser.  It's like my all time favorite reality show.  I'm a junkie...I love the where are they now shows.  I find their accomplishments truly inspiring.

6.  I once put my high school boyfriend's truck in a ditch when I was learning to drive.  I don't think his parents ever knew...(but the cat's out of the bag now!)

7.  I once explored an abandoned missile silo.  Totally trespassing...I'm a criminal.