As I sit here in my back yard, I enjoy the cool breeze, the chirping birds, and I notice an occasional leaf fluttering to the ground from my large maple tree. It's in these moments that I feel oh so very small. I am sitting in my back yard, in my subdivision, within my town, that is nestled in the Southwest of my state, which is situated in the Northwest of this country, and just a part of our glorious world. Small, yes, very, very small. I hear the cars passing by on the country road beyond my subdivision: busy people with a place to go. I notice an airplane fly over head: more people going places.
As a blogger, I realize that even though I am small, my influence can be far reaching. Sometimes, I see hits on my blog reaching one hundred per day from all over the world. I'm sure others get so many more, but this is huge to me; a little blogger, in this small town. There have been many times over the years of blogging that I have considered resigning. It can be time consuming, I face scrutiny, and let's face it, sometimes the creative thoughts just don't flow. But other times, the thoughts flow from my fingertips as if with a mind of their own. I'm just trying to catch up. My words are inconsistent. There is no real theme here on my blog, besides someone who wants to be a daughter of God and love and enjoy life. Sometimes I share a spiritual thought, a testimony, my love of God. Sometime I'm just feeling downright goofy or like to share a funny story.
At this point, I'm trying to feel where Heavenly Father is pulling me. Is this a mission he has for me? A recent negative comment on my blog, while I'm totally over it, has had me thinking about what message am I sending or portraying about myself, my Savior and my Church. Am I honoring Him in all I do and say?
I lost a follower today. Just one, and perhaps it was my Anonymous Commenter. But somehow I felt that I'm not giving enough, I'm not doing enough, I'm not reaching enough. I've read on many blogs that it isn't about the numbers, and please don't get me wrong. It is not about the numbers, but I find myself thinking what more could I have done for that one? It reminds me of the Savior and how He left the 99 and went after the one. Please, don't get me wrong, I'm not comparing myself to our Savior, although I do try to emulate Him and follow Him. I follow an inspirational blogger, Alene, who talks about blogging for the One. I know she is referring to God. That we honor him with our words, but to me it also means blogging for that one...You know...YOU!
As my ONE, what can I do for you?
What would you like to hear more of from little old moi?
What can I share with you?
Girl - I hopped over to visit and was blown away by how much I needed your words. "A recent negative comment on my blog, while I'm totally over it, has had me thinking about what message am I sending or portraying about myself, my Savior and my Church. Am I honoring Him in all I do and say?"
ReplyDeleteI too question OFTEN and wonder and when I'm about to give it up -- God nudges me on.
So while I was so in to your words -- I burst into tears when you mentioned my name. Oh my -- girl, it's the One -- Christ -- who gives us a voice and a message to share -- but once He has given it it is for those ONES -- YOU -- who need to hear.
love you
I'm happy to read your blog. Although I've been terrible at keeping up with my bloggie reading. Does it ever feel like your life is an endless to do list? It doesn't matter how much I accomplish there is always more!!
ReplyDeleteI like your blog because it is real. And in many ways I can relate to it. I also really like the comfort of the peace and security of my little tiny sphere in this world. I'm so grateful for peace, for beauty, for health, for personal growth.
ReplyDeleteMaybe the blogger you lost was just simplifying their life and stopped blogging altogether. Making a blog can be time consuming and can stretch the bounds of our creativity. :) But we do touch each other, every one. You definitely touch people through blogging.