Despite this, there are several people in my life that just don't like me. Let's just say, they aren't blood relatives and leave it at that. One says I have been trying to break up their family since my introduction into it. Hmmm interesting....Let's see...Husband has wife, children, needs money, takes best paying job...Sorry, it isn't in your community. My fault? Possibly, if he hadn't have married me then he wouldn't have needed THIS job. Speaking of hadn't have married me, another said she wished he had never married me on one of her last visits. Psshhhh...How's a woman supposed to take that?? I'm friended and unfriended on facebook. It has gotten to the point where I have just blocked these people to avoid this AND their antagonistic comments all together.
KT says I should just ignore it and get over it. And, he's right. I wish I could be more like him: less emotional. But God made me this way for a reason, I'm not sure whether to embrace these emotions or let it go like KT suggests. I'm working on forgiveness, don't get me wrong. But there is still that innate desire to be liked and loved. Is that too much to ask? Most days I don't even give this a thought, but then those Satan thoughts creep in that say, "You aren't good enough, no one likes you..." And then I remember. I become obsessive over how I can make myself more likable.
If it sounds like I am on a pity pot, maybe I am,
but remember, ♫♫It's my blog and I'll cry if I want to..♫♫
I'm not sure if this desire to be liked is a Personality flaw or
if I am personally flawed and that's why they don't like me.
I'll probably never know...
What do you struggle with?